I was a freak with no real friends who dressed in ill-fitting garage sale clothes. I had bad grades and no direction. Wait! I did have a direction! My mom conditioned me to graduate from high school, get married right away, and start having kids immediately (the man is supposed to support the wife and children), which is exactly what I did, contrary to everyone else's advice. I ended up divorced from a deadbeat and living on welfare and help from other family. Totally different from my goal of being a full time pioneer (no job of course) and happily married with kids. Mine was a dream of the '50's. Not very practical in the '90's!
I'm in my late 30's and in college since age 31. Others wonder when I will ever get done, but I'm a single mom in college. Do the math! It just takes us longer. At least we are doing it!
Now, I am thoroughly spiritually confused. Raised in "truth" but left two years ago. I think I'm a pagan but not sure. The witch at the witch store (my name for those cool pagan shops) said that many pagans and witches came out of the JW religion. It can ruin a person for Christianity. I sure do believe that! So, I'm reading up on Wicca while going to the Assembly of God church in town and studying up on mainline Christianity. I figure that one will stick more than the other. I want to take what I like out of everything and discard what I don't want. You know, make up my own faith/lifestyle from scratch. All of the naturalness of a pagan life sounds so nice, but I can't seem to buy into the god/goddess thing.